Documenting the entrance into adulthood of two melanin gifted individuals

Tuesday, March 4, 2008

Things Revealed In The Last One Hundred Sixty Eight Hours

- Family is my biggest motivation in life. I love my family. It hurts me how much how often I cannot be with the little family I have. Or even on my terms. But that's my own doing and a whole other story. But I hope to have a family filled with love.

- I love God. He is so good . He has done so many things for me; more amazing, the instances I reference are a mere fraction of his total blessings. Most are unknown. I guess that's why a certain type of ignorance is bliss. Knowledge that His eye is watching miniscule sparrows is very comforting.

- Posh is a silly girl.

- Posh is trying to inundate herself with activities as to drown out the loneliness of being totally single for the first time in her adult life. She is a brave girl.

- When I am blue, I tend to sort a lot. I also get much more anal about cleanliness. These are elements I need to incorporate to my regular personality, notjust the low periods. But it is fun and therapeutic. Perhaps if it was regular routine I would never get as low as I had been again.

- I've been with my girlfriend for two months. I am very excited. I am committed to seeing this grow. It was liberating typing these thoughts. I am also excited I even wanted to share that. She is amazing.

- I need to be more social. I have friends that I truly care for, but my actions are nowhere near what they should be. I will change that.

- My father might not last much longer. But I began to fulfill a promise to my sister's mom to bring them together. Sis has a hole she wants to fill. Unexpectedly, she's helping me fill holes I didn't realize I had. And I love her so much.

- I love my family

- I think I will post here more often. Posh's encouragement was golden.

- God really is good.

- I need to grow up.

- I actually want to grow up.

- I want to grow up

- I need to pray

- I need you to pray for me

- I need to move
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