"scared of the illicit stipulations with a sensual girl in his apartment after hours"--Bighead said it best!
I recently had a three month affair with the CAT. He was a blast from my past, my first sexual encounter, same religion as me, and looked real good on paper, not to mention that he was handsome and firm in all the right places!
Question: how are you going to invite a girl over to your house, derive pleasure from her company, then kick her out at 2:30 am? any rational and sane person would say: girl he has no respect! he does not value that girl outside of someone that fulfills the role of a sex object!
twice in the last 3 months of our affair he has kicked me out. twice has he apologized for his actions. twice he felt the need to express regret! i have people in my life for over 5 years and they have never kicked me out, apologized for their actions or ever expressed regret about something we had done together (sexual and not).
the first time he used his three series approach i forgave and moved on. that was his fault. the second time, i snipped it in the behind, that was my fault. i did not give him the opportunity to have that cathartic experience at my expense. the third time...there won't be one! i have too much going for me, am too much of a great catch, to settle for a dude that can't manage something as fundamental as a human relationship! there are ways to treat people, he needs to figure that out.
one more thing i would like to mention about the CAT! he is hyper repressed. his favorite music: 60's 70's soul where the voices and the music is unadulterated and the theme of love is suggestive but not explicit. ideas on women's dress: headdresses are the best! relations with women: one time deal with a stranger while on vacation in the island! clearly he has not reconciled his natural heterosexual desires with his inherant love of his God and church! he wants what's natural, but thinks he'll be damned to hell. what a hypocrite! then he wants to pass judgment on others for what they MAKE him do! i stop here because i see how this may deteriorate into dark comedy and this is NOT a laughing matter!
so how does all of this equal a CAT loosing his last life? Well next time he calls or texts (i give him 2 weeks--his pattern) i will let it go to voicemail. Next time i hear from him, i'll remember being kick out at 2:30 in the morning!
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The church boy sexual repression issue is not uncommon though his expression of it is really twisted and sad. But how come you kept going over there when he could have been just as rude leaving your house? At least the second time you already would have been in bed.
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