"whatever it is you like..."

call me pinocchio cause lately i've been feeling like someone else is pulling the strings.

Nothing appears to be remotely connected to anything. right now my life lacks fluidity or consistency. if you've ever seen "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" then you know exactly what it is i'm going through.

one day i have a date... the next i never hear from them again.

second day i apply for a job and even get a letter, but that's as far as it goes.

third day a meet up with an interest...all selfish. all empty. (should be) all done.

fourth day i have class but am unsure if i'll be able to continue next semester because i don't have a job lined up yet. without a job and a job schedule, how will i be able to schedule my classes.
i have packets on med school, but how long til i get there?

i guess i'm just failing to see how everything is connected in my professional, personal and academic life.

the other day my girlfriend jozi told me how since i've graduated i am not the same. i don't hang out, i don't see her or even talk to her as much and i'm not as charismatic as i once was. to that i say it's because my life right now is suspended on 4 fish line wires being manipulated by... (sigh)

that's just it. i said for my 25th i would need to work on having more faith. maybe this here is Him giving me the chance to make good on my word. but truth be told, i'm only human; a human who has some serious control issues, so it's only fair that i would desire to know the destination for the path i'm currently on.

as that is NOT gonna happen, i'll simply wait.

"my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus' blood and righteousness"

also

"without faith, it is IMPOSSIBLE to please God" i say...mission possible.

coming to you live from the house of the master puppeteer,

Posh