it's been a month since i started my new job and the phrase that summarized these last 30 days is "trail by fire!" i feel like i may have jumped "straight out of the frying pan and into the fire" (this line goes out to retha!). i am really enjoying what i'm doing, but like so many non-technical, assembly-line jobs, there is no training manual; you are expected to learn on the job. no, the job is not at all complicated, but there are certain nuances and idiosyncrasies that are associated with the type of work i'm doing. gaining a firm grasp on them is a matter of time.
let's explore this concept of time and how it manifests in my life. with time comes a sense of confidence and certainty. time, as manifested in the life of lori is welcomed, however the unknown that is associated with it, is not! somewhat of a dichotomy and must assuredly a dilemma!
therefore, although i love my job (thus far!) not knowing what to expect, which is inherent in starting a new job especially with my boss i have found, has caused me great stress and has taken a stab at my confidence level.
in my non-realistic lori-centric world i expected to know everything on "day one"! that is not the case. every week i've been exposed to something new. i'm continually asking questions (which is a good thing--i need to syke myself up) and luckily i work with the best team around who are very patient and answer all my questions.
when all is said and done, the experience i'm gaining is immeasurable not to mention the opportunities associated with my job and i'm greatful. i am learning new things about my job and about myself. i know there are many personal things i need to work on and this job is bringing them to the forefront of my personal growth and development agenda. thank you.
disclaimer: come January, i may be out of a job; so as much as i love what i'm doing, i'm in the process of looking for another government job...just in case. wish me luck and hope that everything happens as it's suppose to happen.
til the next time
posh
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Having been where you are, just remember that when you start to doubt yourself it's in those moments that you are learning something new and valuable.
CS can be a handful, but after working for her, you'll be able to handle anything. And, you are working with the best group of people I've ever worked with...they are all crazy and and fun in their own special ways...but you have already learned that.
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