lonely

(i'm blog binging...something i need to explore more. what does this tell me about my personality?)

but back to the subject at hand. my cousin, we'll call him sexual chocolate for this blog, is headed off to baghdad with the state department on this friday. yesterday was my last time seeing and hanging out with him for what could be a whole year.

although he came into my life a couple years ago, for the past 9 months he has been my only family member in the district. furthermore, he double as a male friend to balance the ratio when groups of us went out. now he's gone!

selfish, yeah i know. i'm a miss him and hope that the Lord keeps him safe. i'm confident that he is making the right decision and will lead him down the path the Lord has in store for him. i'm ultra proud of him and i will miss him for more than just a "hang out/ratio balancing" buddy.

but back to the ratio...i can't think of one male friend who could possibly replace sexual chocolate! i'll miss him.

i suppose this will give me an opportunity to step outside my comfort some. i'll have to meet new folk and forge new friendship.

i'll keep you posted on the journey of socialization. good times.