Growing Pains

caring of someone ain't easy. you care for someone, you place expectations on them. placing those expectations are natural but the flip side of those is disappointment. it's the fear of this disappointment that has kept me from really caring about any one that was not blood related. similarly, i can credit disappoint as making me very tolerant and understand of the actions that those closest to me choose to engage in. it's not that i expect less, but i refuse to let disappointment hinder or be an obstacle in forging on with relationships. yes i do get disappointed. i get vexed. i outline everything that is a contributor to my anger and let the other person know. regardless, once i let them know i keep the relationship moving forward. i don't like retrieving event of the past because that is where they belong, but if the situation is grave enough i will dig. digging is very delicate. it can either cause realization or resentment. i would much prefer to grow from the past instead of dwelling on it.

this is how i operate and shouldn't expect those closest to me to do the same. maybe i should consider how those closest to me operate. (something for me to work on) i'm not perfect i know this, but i try to be understanding which is something that i EXPECT from those around me.

relationships requires much patience and selflessness. i'm working on both. care to join me?