this song has been on repeat all day at work. listen to the words and the music (the video is kinda cheesy!)
artist: Chris Tomlin
song: Better is One Day in Your Courts
Posh
Tuesday, November 25, 2008
Repeat, Please
i've known that i would be out of a job come january 1, 2009 since september 7th, but d-day is fast approaching and the uncertainty of if all is getting to me.
i started off applying to dc gov't jobs but working in the committee that has oversight on dc human resources i realized this path would lead to a dead end! (dc gov't is like that!) so i broadened things a bit. i went to the feds. the fed have some annoying "barriers to entry" called ksa's. you want to know my knowledge, skills and ability? call me in for an interview and let's talk! or better yet, make use of your probationary period and see how i work. but as that is not going to happen, i have spend countless hours working on these ksa's. then i tried private sector employment! with jobs being cut by the 1000's i figured my chances were slim. i applied and that's the end of that one.
5 weeks left to go and still nothing is lined up. if this is not a test of faith, then i don't know what is! yinka (now sort of may spiritual companion) helped me look back on periods in my life where things were unknown and how He always came through.
just on example that i've told several folk. summer 2004 after i graduated from college i did not have a job lined up and my parents were telling to to 1) get a job 2) go to grad school or 3) get kicked out the house! on this particular afternoon, my sister had a job interview in boston (45 mins drive from out house) but wasn't feeling well enough to drive. my father forced me to drive her into the city. (shamefully) with much fuss and attitude, i did i as i was told. when we got to her interview location, i rushed in to use the restroom. the first person i saw (later i found out he was a founding member of the school) i asked for directions to the water closet. his response to me was this: i'll tell you were the restroom is if you answer these questions. 1. are you a recent college grad? yes 2. are you in need of a job? yes and 3. are you passionate about the youth? yes just like that i got an interview and was hired for an urban education fellowship!
all i'm saying is this: let's see that again!
posh
Monday, November 24, 2008
Tag...I'm it!
Retha, you are forgiven!
here's the game. usually i'm not one to play games... i think they're for children, but i'll go along with this one.
rules are as follows if you can't read the picture:
1. Link to the person that tagged you, and post the rules on your blog.
2. Share 7 random and/or weird facts about yourself.
3. Tag 7 random people at the end of your post, and include links to their blogs.
4. Let each person know that they've been tagged by leaving a comment on their blog.
7 random and/or weird facts about me:
a. my default is to tell the truth
b. i wear my emotions on my sleeve
c. i HATE when folk snap/smack their gum or chew like cows! really? Really? you think that's sexy? and black women folk stay doing it! news flash, you look like a cow. snapping/smacking gum is rude in public and downright obnoxious! get over it. last time a checked gum was meant to be chewed and not heard. work it out, REALLY!
d. kettle one is my drink of choice
e. i've always wanted to marry/get with a pastor. there is something about the man of God! also i think a lot of these pastors had a wild side before they got "the calling." i guess i want to experience a sanctified freak! lol! :-)
f. i want to move to haiti in my mid thirties
g. i'm an introvert with some serious communication issues
to those who've been tagged, play along! good times! and on some level it's cathartic!
posh
Whatever I Like!
i just finished reading retha's post on "ms. independent" and others' comments on her post. i didn't comment cause i wasn't sure how i felt about her assessment of the song and what others had to say. what i do know is that t.i.'s song "you can have whatever you like" i right up my alley!
independence is great! the feminists movement was the greatest, but i firmly believe two things: 1)feminism is about having a choice and does not trump or negate being a women (in the "traditional" or natural sense of the word) and 2)women want to be just that! and it happens more often when men are men!
it's real simple, there is man and woman; ying and yang; hot and cold; up and down; east and west. i hope you get the point. there is a balance. you can't have one without the other. i say this because i find that now a days, as retha mentioned, too many folk are influenced by rap songs and video and honestly believe very simplistically, that a woman should pay for the first date and that she shouldn't need a man outside of her carnal needs. this is not the natural order of things. men have this inner sense and desire to be the protector and provider (God had something to do with this) and woman tend to be the nurturer and comforter. there is a balance. when things are out of wack, meaning when men no longer want to provide (know that providing is more than a paycheck) and acquiesce to relinquishing their "pants," it only makes sense that women assume their position resulting in songs like "ms. independent" or "i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t." some one has got to play the role of the man if he's acting like the women! quite honestly i think these songs are an affront to men: men that take care of business and act as leaders and priests of their homes. i betcha that usher never has his wife pay for dinners. it further amazes me that it's men who write these songs and perform them! indirectly men, you are "stripping" yourself of your manhood. don't get mad at women when we emasculate you all, you've already done it to yourself.
lauren hill said it best with "stop acting like boys and be men." you want to be treated like men? then start celebrating our differences; start celebrating the fact that you complement a women and have the capacity to bring out the best in her. start singing "Long as you got me you won't need nobody...baby you can have whatever you like." ;-)
posh
independence is great! the feminists movement was the greatest, but i firmly believe two things: 1)feminism is about having a choice and does not trump or negate being a women (in the "traditional" or natural sense of the word) and 2)women want to be just that! and it happens more often when men are men!
it's real simple, there is man and woman; ying and yang; hot and cold; up and down; east and west. i hope you get the point. there is a balance. you can't have one without the other. i say this because i find that now a days, as retha mentioned, too many folk are influenced by rap songs and video and honestly believe very simplistically, that a woman should pay for the first date and that she shouldn't need a man outside of her carnal needs. this is not the natural order of things. men have this inner sense and desire to be the protector and provider (God had something to do with this) and woman tend to be the nurturer and comforter. there is a balance. when things are out of wack, meaning when men no longer want to provide (know that providing is more than a paycheck) and acquiesce to relinquishing their "pants," it only makes sense that women assume their position resulting in songs like "ms. independent" or "i-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t." some one has got to play the role of the man if he's acting like the women! quite honestly i think these songs are an affront to men: men that take care of business and act as leaders and priests of their homes. i betcha that usher never has his wife pay for dinners. it further amazes me that it's men who write these songs and perform them! indirectly men, you are "stripping" yourself of your manhood. don't get mad at women when we emasculate you all, you've already done it to yourself.
lauren hill said it best with "stop acting like boys and be men." you want to be treated like men? then start celebrating our differences; start celebrating the fact that you complement a women and have the capacity to bring out the best in her. start singing "Long as you got me you won't need nobody...baby you can have whatever you like." ;-)
posh
Monday, November 17, 2008
And Counting...
i started off this year believing that great things were in store. for the first time since my 18th birthday, i had a low key, intimate new years celebration with one the the persons i love most in this world. i told her that evening as we waited for the ball to drop, "this moment is a foretaste of a year great to come." with only 1.5 months to go, my prediction proved correct...at least for me.
i know that this year saw hurricanes, deaths, fires, tornadoes, and a global financial crash, but examining the little thing in which we have control, this year has been like none other.
let me of course start by stating the obvious: We,I, elected the first black president of the US.
I graduated for AU with an MPA
I learned much about men and boys
My relationship with God has increased enormously
I'm 90% financially independent
I am living in one of the greatest cities in the US
I have found a church home, in which i'm active
I'm in my early 20s not 30's and should act accordingly
For 9 months i was living single with NO roommate and survived
I'm gradually learning what love is
I have joy
i finally know what i want to be when i grow up
I made some really awesome new friends; love you ladies
and now as i count down the hours til my 25th birthday, i am grateful and happy for the years gone by and the opportunity to see another year of life. i will continue to take charge over the thing which i can control and savor every moment.
i was speaking with yinka last week about how the twenty-somethings should be called the twenty-sucking, now i think i may have spoken prematurely. the best times are still to come.
Posh
Friday, November 14, 2008
Novus ordo seclorum
Obama Obama OOOOBAAAMA! seems to be the chant of the current world. ten days ago from this date, we who never thought we'd live to see the day when a black man was elected president, witnessed the third greatest moment in american history. barack obama was elected the 42nd president of the united states and to this day, there have not been any reports of assassination attempts. i'm not complaining!
but to the purpose of this blog. i came across an article in the washington post about the preparations taking place for the g-20 summit hosted here in dc this weekend. the article pointed out several key discussion point and policies that these world leaders are tasking themselves with. one in particular is to create "a new body to supervise the regulation of global financial institutions. The 'college of supervisors' would bring together international regulators to coordinate oversight of the world's 30 largest financial institutions, according to officials familiar with the plans. The new body would be designed to add an extra level of scrutiny to the way banks are monitored and to catch excessive risk-taking of the sort that contributed to the current economic crisis."
a "college of supervisors" that essentially will work to create one large global economy to ensure that the economic crisis that has bitched slapped the world (excuse my english) won't happen again. i can't help but think that he who controls the finances, controls all. if during this g-20 summit they are able to establish this college, in essence they would have established one unified global power in charge of the world's global markets.
centralization of power is a tricky tool. power contained in control of the global markets trickles down into religious control and social control for starters. rather than lobbying individual nations, all a particular power (say...the vatican) would need to do is lobby the "college of supervisors."
how much power will be be granted to this college? who will make up this college? what will be their mandate and who will keep them in check? i can't help but think that what is happening is a marker for how desperate for greed and power our world has become. to maintain our status quo we are willing to resign our financial freedom to an inconspicuous "college of supervisors." i knew the world was flat and the globalization as a large contributing factor; i also knew that one day the world would united under one power, but i just did not think i would happen so soon at the eve of a universally joyous event!
to our champion barack...with you comes the ushering of a new order of the ages.
thanks for doing your part in the fulfillment of prophecy.
gratefully,
Posh
check out the article at http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/11/13/AR2008111303844.html?hpid=artslot
but to the purpose of this blog. i came across an article in the washington post about the preparations taking place for the g-20 summit hosted here in dc this weekend. the article pointed out several key discussion point and policies that these world leaders are tasking themselves with. one in particular is to create "a new body to supervise the regulation of global financial institutions. The 'college of supervisors' would bring together international regulators to coordinate oversight of the world's 30 largest financial institutions, according to officials familiar with the plans. The new body would be designed to add an extra level of scrutiny to the way banks are monitored and to catch excessive risk-taking of the sort that contributed to the current economic crisis."
a "college of supervisors" that essentially will work to create one large global economy to ensure that the economic crisis that has bitched slapped the world (excuse my english) won't happen again. i can't help but think that he who controls the finances, controls all. if during this g-20 summit they are able to establish this college, in essence they would have established one unified global power in charge of the world's global markets.
centralization of power is a tricky tool. power contained in control of the global markets trickles down into religious control and social control for starters. rather than lobbying individual nations, all a particular power (say...the vatican) would need to do is lobby the "college of supervisors."
how much power will be be granted to this college? who will make up this college? what will be their mandate and who will keep them in check? i can't help but think that what is happening is a marker for how desperate for greed and power our world has become. to maintain our status quo we are willing to resign our financial freedom to an inconspicuous "college of supervisors." i knew the world was flat and the globalization as a large contributing factor; i also knew that one day the world would united under one power, but i just did not think i would happen so soon at the eve of a universally joyous event!
to our champion barack...with you comes the ushering of a new order of the ages.
thanks for doing your part in the fulfillment of prophecy.
gratefully,
Posh
check out the article at http://www.washingtonpost.com/wp-dyn/content/article/2008/11/13/AR2008111303844.html?hpid=artslot
Thursday, November 13, 2008
"whatever it is you like..."
call me pinocchio cause lately i've been feeling like someone else is pulling the strings.
Nothing appears to be remotely connected to anything. right now my life lacks fluidity or consistency. if you've ever seen "eternal sunshine of the spotless mind" then you know exactly what it is i'm going through.
one day i have a date... the next i never hear from them again.
second day i apply for a job and even get a letter, but that's as far as it goes.
third day a meet up with an interest...all selfish. all empty. (should be) all done.
fourth day i have class but am unsure if i'll be able to continue next semester because i don't have a job lined up yet. without a job and a job schedule, how will i be able to schedule my classes.
i have packets on med school, but how long til i get there?
i guess i'm just failing to see how everything is connected in my professional, personal and academic life.
the other day my girlfriend jozi told me how since i've graduated i am not the same. i don't hang out, i don't see her or even talk to her as much and i'm not as charismatic as i once was. to that i say it's because my life right now is suspended on 4 fish line wires being manipulated by... (sigh)
that's just it. i said for my 25th i would need to work on having more faith. maybe this here is Him giving me the chance to make good on my word. but truth be told, i'm only human; a human who has some serious control issues, so it's only fair that i would desire to know the destination for the path i'm currently on.
as that is NOT gonna happen, i'll simply wait.
"my hope is built on nothing less than Jesus' blood and righteousness"
also
"without faith, it is IMPOSSIBLE to please God" i say...mission possible.
coming to you live from the house of the master puppeteer,
Posh
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